well, another trip around the sun is complete and 2010 finds us in oregon. 2009 started with a broken leg, stella's first tooth and a desperate desire to get out of kentucky for a while. 12 months and 24 states later we have moved out of our tiny airstream trailer and into an apartment to wait out the unimaginably damp oregon winter. moving out of the airstream, we felt like we'd just left the ark after 40 days and nights of bobbing through the incessant precipitation. the entire population of oregon apparently seems suffers from the delusion that it's not raining; suburban mom types and sorority girls are out there walking their dogs and chatting on their phones in the pouring rain. we're damply adapting.
i like to imagine that i can mail pictures to my past self. sometimes i see something going on in the present and i realize that a polaroid from the here and now would totally blow my past self's mind. the corollary to this is of course that i expect that any picture from the future would also flip my current lid. i think if this system really worked, it would take a lot of pressure off. it seems like we could quit worrying about making plans and give into the idea that the that the future cannot be anticipated and that the most meaningful events in your life are often the most unexpected.

the needle skips on a tragedy and the music of day to day life is shattered with unexpected static. 2010 has started roughly for some brave and beloved friends of ours and i wish there was any damn thing i could do about it. if you pray, pray for anyone who is struggling to keep their family safe.