Thursday, April 30, 2009
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Saturday, April 25, 2009
los gatos
pedro and quito have moved to indiana, land of hoosiers and soft-hearted grandparents. i can't express how much i love these little cats without waxing sentimental. when we hatched our grand plan to get rid of all our stuff and move to oregon in a trailer, we didn't realize that it was going to break up our collection of fine mammals but trailer life is not for these outdoors, urban-saavy gatos. i'm willing to break a little piece of heart on the gamble that they will like it better out in the country until we land somewhere kitty-friendly. ackk, the sadness. i'm starting to understand why my mother had trouble leaving my dorm room when she dropped me off at college. someday in the future cats will use email and this will be so much easier.
Friday, April 24, 2009
2am thoughts
can you get the jump on fate? you know some kind of change is out there headed for you like a meteor. what if you just go ahead and scramble your own life; will fate be satisfied? will fate kick back and take a smoke break saying "well he screwed things up enough himself, he dosen't need any help from me". it's the waiting that kills me. i know change is coming but i can't stand to sit around waiting for the other cosmic shoe to drop. it makes me antsy and restless. the more stable things seem the more i start to feel twitchy. a few years back, my parents house got hit by tornado. thanks to my father's foresight (also known as eastern kentucky paranoia) my family weathered the storm in a closet that was reinforced as a storm room. but when they came out the garage was gone, the house was crooked and life was real different. that seems to be the way things happen; you step into a closet and when you come out, your life is completely different forever. i went up to indiana a few days later to help clean up and remember wandering through the neighboring field where every few feet some random object from the past was scattered in the grass; a toy robot driven half into the ground, a report card in a bush, a pile of legos inexplicably surrounding the base of a tree. if felt good. objects seem to clutter my mind and i feel like that tornado has been spinning around in my life ever since it tore up my parents house. i'm tired of being possessed by possessions. i can't imagine my life being any better than it is right now and that's the best reason i can think of to shake things up a little bit. part of the definiting of "living" is responding to the environment; it you're not challenged to adapt and grow then you get old quick. i guess i'm ranting to rationalize the conflict i feel when it comes to leaving a life i love, but the truth is i've gotta go, i just can't shake the restlessness anymore.
birthday suit weather
firefly tumbleweed and the silver moon
cast iron beets and a baby spoon
crickets on the floor with a typhoon broom
mama's gone crazy in the living room
ms nala sauls whistles but she can't come in
daddy's locked up in the soda can again
the furry ninja's going north to make some friends
and the old rotten weiler's escaped again
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